Tripp.

Going on a trip tomorrow~
I can't wait.
Vegas, then Scotty's Castle.
I love the desert.
It makes me feel like magic exists.

Depression sucks.

Well, no problems with Mackenzie. (thank heaven.)

okay.

Mackenzie.

let me explain this chick to you.

she's a really awesome chick who goes to my school. she was just sorta there until my best friend from school Zoey introduced me to her. I always thought she was cool and looked up to her, but... the second she found about my depression she was ON ME. she always gave me lectures and stuff and tried to help and now she's cooled down a bit, but she's there for me, so she's kind of like my advisor that I go to on what to do. she still worries.

everyone worries.

I can't help that I guess. even though I wish I could just get them to chill out. I mean, it's not their problem whether I live or die, am sad or happy, right? but still, they worry. to the extreme.

eh.

I guess I'll never know what goes through their heads-- not fully, at least.

especially Mackenzie's, and Cody's, and Zoey's. (Cody is my best guy friend.)

oh, dear.

depression sucks.

&so it begins.

Every story starts somewhere, and, well, mine started a while back. A long while back. But, the story hasn't been written until now.

So here it is.

I live in Santa Cruz County; more specifically a town called Felton. It's a little town in the middle of nowhere. I bet you've never heard of it-- that is, unless you live here.

Anyway; I've lived here my whole life and nothing was really that exciting. Life started to suck in third grade, really started to suck in fifth, and in sixth the world went downhill. After sixth- well, let's just say I've been suicidal sometimes and depressed ever since.

Let's not talk about that though.

Although life is hard, there's some pretty interesting things going on. Well, not today. Today I'm still waiting for breakfast from my mommy even though it's past noon and I'm very capable of making food myself. I just haven't been motivated to do... well... anything the past few weeks. Especially today. Today I want to watch reruns of Monk, Psych, and House and do absolutely nothing.

Yes, I am a tad lazy.

At least TODAY.

I started this blog after reading my friend's: http://thelifeofalexisbarker.blogspot.com/2009/12/visiting-hours.html Check her out.

So thank Ms. Alexis Barker for making me start this. hahah.

Anyway, even though nothing's particularly wrong right now I'm afraid that a problem will spark with my dear over-protective friend/advisor Mackenzie.

Oh, Mackenzie...

Eh. More on her later.

I'm out!

Loveyouall.